This was to be the week of the Big ultrasound, the one where the baby is looked at from every angle possible and all of the organs are analyzed. It is generally the time that you would find out the sex of the baby. So, we got a sitter for Nick, knowing that this was expected to be a long appointment, and headed to the office. We went in with the same nervous feeling of what would we do if we only saw two heart beats but our minds were quickly set at ease when the technician who was doing our scan confirmed that she saw all the hearts beating. She went on to look at each baby closely and confirm once again that they were all boys.
Next it was Dr. Shields turn. He came in the room with only one thing to say to us and that was that everything looked status quo. Joshua was still displaying no fluid and the walls of his heart still looked to be thick. Although he was still not sure what this meant since all four chambers of his heart have been formed. He told us that we needed to stay optimistic and the appointment had gone as well as could be expected. David and Samuel were looking great and so was my cervix and while we would like to see some change for the better in Joshua, we didn't see a change for the worse which is a blessing.
We would like to be able to walk in to or out of one of these appointments with confidence, but I don't think that is in the plan for us and we're okay with that. God knows these babies, loves them, and is in control of their futures and that fact is more comforting to us than our own peace of mind. We will continue to pray and ask that you lift all of these babies up in prayer as well. While I only have about three months left, even the doc says that it's going to be a very long and rocky road ahead.